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squares and bell jar

2008-12-11T15:12:37Z

Use your education
And take an educated guess about me
ani difranco

for the past year i have been constantly hopping between two squares - possibility and impossibility. when im in my practical and sensible mode, i will be in the impossible square, but when i am in my irrational self and my feelings get the better of me, i'll be in the possible square. oh how silly.

i should stop sitting under the bell jar that i've created but have knowingly chosen to ignore it.

kayseewhy @ 2008-11-13T01:09:00

2008-11-12T17:27:11Z

over the past few days i finally realised what i have always known but have chosen to ignore, time and time again. because im exactly not like the chinese phrase that my sister said that day: able to pick it up and put it down (in chinese). i just cant put it down.

imagine the dude who patiently knock and fit every piece of stone nicely to form what is now a beautiful road.
roads deserve to be beautiful too. :)

kayseewhy @ 2008-11-02T19:45:00

2008-11-02T11:46:43Z

And it'll be just as quiet when I leave
As it was when I first got here
I don't expect anything
I don't expect anything

kayseewhy @ 2008-10-18T00:32:00

2008-10-17T16:35:10Z

Stop this train
I want to get off and go home again
I can't take the speed it's moving in
I know I can't but honestly won't someone stop this train
- john mayer

this world is moving too fast for me.

i cant wait for the holidays to come, then i can sit on a bench under a tree and just read a nice novel and probably fall asleep with the book on my lap.
but for now..

kayseewhy @ 2007-01-02T14:37:00

2007-01-02T06:46:30Z

i knew this wouldnt last considering how lazy i am.. haha so after this entry im not gonna blog anymore!

well last words? hmm happy new year to all of you who still reads this.. i cant believe it.. this time last yr i wasnt even j1 yet and this time next yr i'll be done with As and have to face the scary reality of making life decisions about my future.

but for now, im glad i have you!

happy birthday daddy! =) (one day late)

happy birthday eric (one day early)

HAHAHA this photo is damn funny rite. happy birthday!

kayseewhy @ 2006-12-20T12:37:00

2006-12-20T04:49:07Z

"And it's you
the light changes when you're in the room"
- michelle branch, it's you

kayseewhy @ 2006-12-16T13:49:00

2006-12-16T06:16:04Z

sawatdiikha! im back and i seriously wonder if anyone still reads this haha

well living in the hills without electricity is quite fun actually! i kinda miss it.
i dont know how to write down my thoughts and feelings so i guess i'll just put up some photos!

basically we built a dam, cleared and widen the river, widen the road which all required alot ALOT of changkul-ing
and shovelling and cementing etc. will upload more photos soon!

chan rak ter =)

kayseewhy @ 2006-12-05T00:30:00

2006-12-04T16:30:12Z

doesnt it make you smile? =))))
ikea tampines aint that great btw..its just bigger thats all!

so i'll be gone for the next 11 days! dont miss me!
shaojian happy birthday in advance! you know i love you rite! haha
pls dont freeze to death or get killed by eunice in korea!

kayseewhy @ 2006-11-28T23:46:00

2006-11-28T15:46:43Z

haha looks like cold storage pple cant tell the diff between green tea and pepsi
and there is a place called kickapoo in tenacious D hahaha

kayseewhy @ 2006-11-27T23:42:00

2006-11-27T15:42:29Z

i've successfully packed all my stuff in my room into boxes (good job choonie!) while doing so, i uncovered many letters, photos, notes (that we passed around in class), toys, gifts, money(!!!!), foreign money (??), decomposing food, a bottle 1/5 filled of barcardi (?!?) and lots of other nonsense. haha some stuff made me smile, cry or even cringe. its funny how the stuff we hold on so dear to in the past can mean nothing to us now ya.

well time to put the past behind and look ahead! what colour shall i paint my room? hmm

kayseewhy @ 2006-11-23T20:26:00

2006-11-23T12:26:15Z

im hungry but i feel like puking.

now i dont feel like watching the last episode cuz i know he is gonna be very sad
and i'll be sad too =( and im heart brokenbecuz his heart is broken!

kayseewhy @ 2006-11-18T16:02:00

2006-11-18T08:02:48Z

yeah im gonna marry him! =)

kayseewhy @ 2006-11-17T00:53:00

2006-11-16T16:53:15Z

from yday!

one day i will take the dhl balloon, ride a trishaw and keyak down the bukit timah canal. ( the last one is quite impossible though)
tschus! =)
rmb during cca best prac we said that ohana means family and that means noone gets left behind. when you were in trouble, we all put our heads together and helped you. now look what you are planning to do. im not asking you to come for the whole camp. just half a day will be good enough. our family is counting on you! so just think about it k.

kayseewhy @ 2006-11-16T00:16:00

2006-11-15T16:16:58Z

im so so damn sick of this. i dont even know why i bother putting myself through this emotional turmoil everyday. i dont even know how to describe this.

and all you do is to make it worse
anw i had a hilarious time tonight with my crazy classmates.. too bad jianjian you didnt come. and im so tired i'll put the photos up another day k jasmine.

maybe it will turn out better. or maybe i just need sleep.

kayseewhy @ 2006-11-13T00:02:00

2006-11-12T16:02:51Z

i saved another snail on the way home just now! but it didnt make me feel any better

chaque fois que tu t'en vas
je pretends que tout va bien
-michelle branch

kayseewhy @ 2006-11-11T19:27:00

2006-11-11T11:27:54Z

we've decided to get the toyota picnic! you can have a picnic in this car haha! it looks like that:

but my dad says we'll only get it when the price drops. im actually quite excited to change a car! the seats are so comfy i nearly fell asleep in it at the showroom just now!
and the best part is it can fit seven pple so next year when we go to school every morning i can push jianjian (shaojian) to the back of the car hoho!

jianjian im still not talking to you for a week! hah!

and happy birthday qiqi! =)

offsie dozzie

kayseewhy @ 2006-11-09T22:07:00

2006-11-09T14:07:13Z

somehow its the only photo we took (other than the ones today) even though we kept saying
we wanna take lots of photos! congrats its over! =)
i rmb during the first pw lesson when sam named our pw grp "yellow ducks" i nearly fainted. well but i grew to like the name haha..

i hate waiting.
but there's nth i can do but to wait.

and i miss choonmin.

kayseewhy @ 2006-11-08T21:58:00

2006-11-08T13:58:39Z

=)

if it makes you happy!
happy birthday michelle

kayseewhy @ 2006-11-07T09:38:00

2006-11-07T01:38:32Z

i think im having very disturbed sleep recently because i feel lethargic throughout the entire day..you know how sleeping gives your brain rest and all, i think my brain doesnt get any rest. becuz i have like a million strange and disturbing dreams every night, and according to my family members i grind my teeth..no wonder when i wake up i feel as tired as when i fell asleep!
haii i dont know what to do!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY JASMINE!!! =)

kayseewhy @ 2006-11-05T00:59:00

2006-11-04T16:59:46Z

i cant help but cry during worship today. well i cried not becuz i was touched by God but becuz it felt terrible to sing the worship song when i dont mean what i sing. how am i supposed to sing "i couldn't take one step without You, i can never go on" "i long for more of You" etc when in my heart i feel otherwise. with everyone around me singing so sincerely, it just made me feel sad at how pathetically and hideously self-centred i am. how did i end up like that? i love God and believe in Him but i just cant bring myself to be wholehearted. i somehow lost it.

anw its 1am and i have to be at the airport in 4 hours time to send my dear choonmin off to shanghai! SHANGHAI NOON! hahaha

and thanks atee sheen wei and siew for surprising me today! =)

kayseewhy @ 2006-11-02T23:39:00

2006-11-02T15:39:43Z

today three 133s two 162s two 171s two 857s two 36s and a million other buses passed before my 960 came so i reached home in time to miss half of prisonbreak. yeah life's like that.

well my fav place in singapore is still south bridge =)
tschuss!

kayseewhy @ 2006-11-02T01:53:00

2006-11-01T17:53:51Z

i rmb tamar received a prophecy in norway about doors. doors are either open or closed. in our lives, God will open certain doors for us to enter and simarly close some doors to stop us from entering. we will never understand why God closes certain doors in our lives and open doors that we never really intend to enter. sometimes i ask God why does life turns out the way i didnt want it to, why dont i get what i want.. but then i realise how self centred i am and all i worry about is me myself and i..God knows what is good for us so He decides which door to close and which door to open..

shaojian just wanna tell you that whether or not your appeal works, everything will turn out fine becuz the path that lies ahead of that opened door is better than the path that lies behind the closed door =)

HAPPY BIRTHDAY LIYAN!

kayseewhy @ 2006-10-30T23:49:00

2006-10-30T15:58:29Z

you can't jump the track, we're like cars on a cable
and life's like an hourglass, glued to the table
no one can find the rewind button, girl.
- anna nalick, breathe

kayseewhy @ 2006-10-29T22:53:00

2006-10-29T15:04:36Z

which is the tallest building in Singapore?

the national library! becuz it has many stories.
hahaha so i was at the national library today and at the fiction section there was this phrase "Learn about life through fiction" funny eh how we actually learn about life through made up stories

anw i wanna learn flower arrangement but its really tough.. you need to have like all these funny tools and it really isnt easy as it looks.. so maybe i'll consider learning that next time!
offsie dozzie!

haii =(

hello world

2006-10-28T17:03:59Z

hmm i really wonder why i have this journal. must be cuz my crazy classmates influenced me to have one! so hello world! welcome to my journal. though i doubt i will write what i truly feel here haha.

anw this week was a busy week and i feel bad for not spending time with my mummy at home..i find it ironic how im somehow busier during the hols than schooldays..well at least this is much better than going sch everyday!

you know how heidi klum says "offsie dozzie" during project runway to the person who gets eliminated? i think its really cute and i think heidi klum is really pretty! haha okay this is really random. a more coherent post will be on its way when i feel more less tired.
offsie dozzie!

thanks michelle for coming to find me today =)